I think some people are stuck in toxic behaviors because of the way they were raised, if they were bullied, if they didn’t get enough love, or something even more serious—whatever it is. Our own inner job is to heal those pains so we don’t bleed onto other people. We are all actually divine beings, in my opinion. I think if we just tune into that energy—which really is working on our own inner self—we can start manifesting beyond what we can even imagine.
The record is about being pretty badly hurt by someone you unconditionally love. And you were ready to love them properly but they weren’t ready to love you properly. It’s kind of a shake on the shoulders, like hey I was sent to you, and maybe you were sent to me to learn more self love.
EDM.com: You began competitively figure skating at the age of 8, and spent much of your youth competing. How do you think figure skating prepared you for your career in music?
It definitely taught me to be persistent. When you get down and you fall over and over again you just get back up. It also taught me resilience. I’m alone all the time on the ice. You have a coach, but when you’re around on the other side of the rink you’re in your own head, and you have to coach yourself. It’s all mind over anything. It’s not even physicality. It’s knowing in your mind, "Oh I’ve landed this double or triple before” and going and doing it again.
When you’re not telling yourself good things, you don’t land those jumps. So it’s the same thing with my work. I have to always be telling myself that I can do things. The minute you have that thought like “oh I don’t deserve to be in this room,” or “I’m not gonna get that,” well you’re going to manifest that. Your mind manifests your reality. That’s why when you feel like shit about yourself, you start seeing shitty things appear, because that’s just how it works.
So I learned that as a figure skater. The day that I got injured and I had to stop skating, it was a day that I wish I got off the ice. I shouldn't have been doing that. I should have got out of my head and got off the ice that day. It taught me a lot. Also, I always just skated because I love music, and I realize that now. I wasn’t the most technical skater. But I would always win the most artistic awards. I remember the coaches would always write-up in the report cards that the way I moved to the ice was like I was music. Which is very interesting because now I’m making music.